Sometimes the smallest things can give you the biggest strength and comfort. One of the most annoying things happened to me that you can imagine at the gym. I was running on the treadmill and after I started to get tired, I checked my distance to see where I am. (I usually run while my towel is covering the screen, somehow not seeing the time and distance makes it easier for me.) The screen showed 5.62 km. That’s not bad – I thought. But I also knew that I can do more, both mentally and physically, so I decided to go until at least 6k and then maybe until 7 or 8. BUT.
As I wanted to put my towel back on the screen I accidentally pushed the emergency stop button. The treadmill stopped immadiately deleting all the data of my run. I shouted ‘NOOOO’ out loud and just felt so mad! I had no idea of my time and the calories burned and stopping like this really put me off and I just couldn’t start running again ‘to finish’. I know it’s stupid but that wouldn’t have felt like really finishing it and seeing 00:00 on the screen was just so demotivating.
I saw that someone was waiting for a free treadmill so I just quickly cleaned and left mine and just went to stretch. As everytime when something upsets me, I messaged him to talk about it. Even just seeing a ‘hey, it’s okay, you did a great job’ message makes me feel a bit better usually, but this time it was different. I was complaining of the machine deleting all my data and he said:
“Well, good that your body didn’t delete it”
And it made me realize how unreasonable I was. Yes, I lost the data of the time and calories, so what? When I monthly summarize my runs I do it considering the distance, which I have. Yes, I could have run one or two extra kilometers. So what? Tomorrow is another day, I’ll have plenty of opportunites to run – and anyways, 5.5k is not that bad. AND actually it is my fault that I didn’t continue so I could just as well stop blaming it on the treadmill and its emergency stop button.
I realized that I shouldn’t get caught up in the situation, in a sudden feeling of anger – but rather stop for a minute, look at it from a few steps away. To think of and appreciate what I did accomplish instead of thinking about what I could have. And most importantly I feel really lucky to have him to remind me of that. My biggest support and my biggest motivation.